HSG-6/13/14

Friday the 13th.  I am not superstitious person but I may just become one...today's appointment was not my favorite.

I finished work for the day and I headed to UFC to meet my sweet husband at the clinic.  I arrived at UFC first and relieved my bladder. Before I could go back out to the lobby to get my husband the nurse whisked me back to a scary looking room.  I asked her if she would like me to go get Dallin and she let me know that he would not be able to come back because they don't have enough vests for him to wear during the procedure.  I was devestated!  I had not been nervous until that moment and there I was sitting on the table with huge medical equipment all around me unsure of what was about to take place.  Mind you, everyone tells you that the HSG test is NOT cool and hurts in exuberant measures!  So, I wasn't excited for this in the first place...but then adding these other factors nearly broke me.  As I was waiting I was texting Dallin and he was not happy either.

I sat...and I sat...and I sat...feeling nervous, frustrated, anxious, scared and ready to have this over with.

Soon enough Dr. Conway walked in with the nurse following.  I was SO happy to see a familiar face (it had felt like I hadn't seen her forever!)  She let me know that it would be quick, I would feel some cramping but it isn't as bad as people say it is.

I get situated in the stirrups and it is like any other appointment/ultrasound I have had thus far.  Not too bad.  Then the procedure begins and it HURT!  The dye they push in my uterus and Fallopian tubes doesn't hurt...but getting it all in the right place.  DANG!!  I cried.  I cried because it hurt.  I cried because I was without my husband.  I cried because I couldn't believe this was my reality...living a life of infertility.

The procedure finished and I had never been so grateful.  Dr. Conway began talking and the nurse went to get Dallin.  When he walked in the room I was so glad he was finally there.  The Dr continued.  "You're tubes look great, they are open and there is no blockages.  Your uterus is a nice triangle shape and then we have this white part.  I'm thinking that it is a polyp."  I immediately think the worse.  I had heard of them before but again...this was my new reality.  My body is not "normal" and this could hinder our chance of getting pregnant even more.

Dr. Conway let us know that there were now some choices we needed to make.  We could do a saline ultrasound right then in the office to make sure that it wasn't just an air bubble that couldn't get out during the procedure or if it truly is a polyp.  The other choice is that we could just immediately schedule surgery to have the polyp removed.  I was so confused.  I couldn't believe it.  Dallin and I decided that we would do the ultrasound to make sure the polyp was truly a polyp.  Results in=confirmed.

More choices available...stop the medication that I had been taking for 3 days and schedule surgery or continue the medication and try to conceive with out the insemination.  We wanted Dr. Conway's input.  We trust her and know that she has our best interest in mind.  She decided to check out my ovaries while she was at it.  First the right side, a follicle is growing.  11 mm to be exact.  Great news!  I am responding to the meds.  She looks at the left...ANOTHER follicle is growing.  Also 11 mm.  Are you kidding me???  Are you kidding?  Dallin and I look at each other in disbelief.  After all this "bad news" we find out that I have TWO eggs growing.  I was sad that insemination was out of the question this round but Dr. Conway let us know that she thinks I should finish the medicine and try to conceive on our own even though I have the polyp and we don't know what Dallin's sperm will do.  I had to ask...because you just never know...will both of these follicles ovulate?  She assured me that they will.  HOLY SMOKES!  Think twins people...2 for 1?  Sure!

It truly is in the hand's of God at this time.  We are unsure what this cycle will bring for us but we are hopeful in the long run.  If nothing happens this time I will have surgery in a couple of weeks and then we will try again with the whole process.  Let the games begin!

Some tender mercies that we have experienced:
-The medication is working!
-We may not have to spend the money on the insemination if it does work.
-Finding UFC and working with Dr Conway
-Michelle Day-a true blessing!
-Reading blogs and watching youtube full of success stories
-Family fast-my parents don't usually fast due to health concerns and they were able to complete a fast for us!
-Everyone's prayers that are deeply felt...thank you! thank you! thank you!
-Being in the temple and feeling a deep love of our Heavenly Father.